12:00am. FlyToTheSky- Gravity. So Damn Happy

Alot has been up lately especually here at home with my grandma's back issue and people (wont mention name) breathing down my neck. But yeah despite all of that I have never been so damn happy and comfortable at where I am at. David is back and I dont think that we have been any closer and I have a new friends Darren who is turing out to be another awesome friend that I have gotten pretty close to fast.

Well I am 22 now and had the most awesome birthday gathering; God has blessed me with so many awesome friends.  Sometimes I tend to forget that even if I only had a few super close friends it better then a whole group of casual aquantences.

Haha. Life is soo good right now thanks God for this blessing.

Haha I got a birthday card that made me cry....haha guess who its from? LOL

Isaac

8:17pm. DVD Dialogue. Happy

Life has been really good lately. Saturday was my Uncles 1year memorial service, so I got to see family and a few old friends....OJ and Tricia. Its been ages since I last saw OJ and Tricia so it was really nice to catch up with those two especially since Tricia is gonna go up to Japan in the end of November. It was nice two see my two nephew's again the are both walking and talking now...not talking all the much but they still can talk. SOOO CUTE!!

David gets back soon and frankly I can wait, I need someone solid to talk to...to spend time with. I know David will call me up and check on me....drag me out of the house, talk to me about God and life. I've done alot of things on my own for a long time now just because no one calls me and no one is here....it was nice being alone and all but I'd like some company sometimes.

11 more days till my 22nd b-day...I really dont know what Im gonna be doing or who Ill be spending it with. Maybe I'll call David take him to dinner someplace so we can talk sotry...hang out and just catch up. I think that maybe my Grandma will have had her sergery either the day before that or sometime near there...kinda bummed about that of all the time to have it....near my b-day! Oh well cant b helped I guess...I have my small group praying on that one as well as some other people from church. Ok well I think Ill go now...need to shower and get back to my movie before I go to bed...which will hopefully be early tonight! hahah!

Thanks God for the many blessing you have given me....some maybe in disguise that I have yet to really see...some in the form of hardships that I have yet to overcome. You have blessed me with an awesome family...not only in blood but in your son Christ. Thanks because without my church family I dont know where I would be today!! Luv Ya!!

Kazuo 

7:45pm. Shinhwa's 7th Album. Happy

Haha I love this album that I am listening to, Shinhwa is like so awesome and talented!! #11 Liar is the best!!! Oh ok anyways I better shut up about my Korean music obcession, but what can I say Koreans are talented in music and in film! Oh but on other news in the Chinese music world i stumbled across this guy group called 6plus....awesome rap/rock group. I swear these things are the most eventful things in my life at the moment...new music. Im a sucker for singers with hot voices, my friend Kris knows what I am talking about right! hahaha....Jay Chow!! Im a damn music whore, I love getting new stuff!!

Hmmm.....Im starting to practice guitar again....its been ages....self teaching is hard but at least I can go at my own speed....though it would have been nice if Jesse actually finished teaching me. HAHAHA!!

18 more days til my 22nd b-day!! I wanted to go up to Oahu but I think I will save that trip for after new years and stuff.

Hmmm well I go now!! BahBai!!

Kazuo

11:32pm. Dong Bang Shin Gi- The Way You Are. Happy

Wow in just 22 days ill be 22! LOL! I am getting older and I know at least a little bit wiser! I no longer allow myself to be walked all over. I cant wait for Christmas and for people to come home...David will be back soon so im stoked major, cant wait to take him to lunch or dinner and just catch up and hang out!! I know I like to complain alot about my dismal social life but I guess that just me being insicure in what I already have....I know that alot of relationships, be it friendships or a dating reloationship, does not stand the test of time and a few make it all the way wheathering all trials. I guess this all goes back to how God gives and takes away; I have lost alot of friends and I have a few sick relationships and just a few healthy thriving relationships. I think of relationships like I do seasons, they are constantly changing either thriving or struggeling to survive. I think also that as a relationship recovers from "a bleak winter" it also gets stronger and some never make it out of the winter. I thank God everytime I get to give or get a nice strong hug from someone...a genuine one that wants to be given....believe me I know the difference between a halfass hug and a genuine one(even if its based on my standards hahhaha)....I even like to be held (long hug). There is nothing like those things to say I Love You....no gift or obceene amount of money can say it better (for me) than physical touch. Physical touch is my primary love language, the comes quality time. Dont get me wrong I wont shun a gift I like them here and there but Id wrather get a hand written letter/card as a just because gift. Oh yeah I dont mind the occasional love sparring either...hehehe....thank u Jesse for that one!! Thank u to all of my friends I love you all no matter what season our relationship is in. To the friends that I have fallen away from over the years I'd like to start again one day when and if God chooses it to be!

Sarang e:

Kazuo